The Girl and Her Ren- Pepper Winters

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“What do you do when you write down all your secrets? No…that’s not enough. What do you do when you write down all your secrets and the one person who should never read them does?
I’ll tell you what you do.
You hope.”

Ren didn’t know the meaning of love until he took Della for his own.
To begin with he hated her, but as the months bled into years, he learned the opposite of hate, dedicating his life to giving her everything.
Every sacrifice, every gift, he gave wholeheartedly.
But then love turned to lust and ruined everything.

I was stupid to write my secrets down, but I’d been stupid before so it was nothing new.
I couldn’t blame him, hate him, fix him.
I tried to move on without him.
But no matter what I did, I couldn’t seem to delete the secrets I’d written.
Until something happened.
Until he came back and read my stupid secrets.
And nothing was the same after that.

Release Date: 5th June, 2018.


What I think?

I was in love and utterly in pieces.

Warning: Messy review/rant ahead. 

I can’t promise you that this review will be coherent because after what Pepper did, I don’t think coherence is something that should be expected of me.

I literally just finished this book, and oh god I’m crying so much right now, and I know if I can ever bring myself to write this review then now is the time, because after that I won’t have the courage to put my body through that agony again. Before you read further I need you to understand something- go into this book without reading anything or any review because trust me, if I’d been given any sort of inkling of what was going to happen, I wouldn’t have read it. Not because this was bad, but because I’m not brave enough. So I beg of you, read this book but don’t read what others think of it because no one can or should tell you how to feel. And if after reading this book you feel like it wasn’t worth it, then you can leave and never believe me again.

I’d lost weight. I’d forgotten how to breathe. my bones were glass and my chest a forge.

To start with, I have to tell you again that I loved The Boy and His Ribbon because really, story telling doesn’t get better than that. But when it ended like it did I raged, I was so fucking angry because how could Pepper! How could she end that book like she did?!

I now know with this book why she did. We weren’t ready. I wasn’t ready, and neither were you.

I have read so many many books in my life, and honestly that comes with the job description of being a book blogger, but never, never have I ever read and loved a character like I have loved Ren. And I already mentioned it in my review of The Boy and his Ribbon.

So really this book hit me harder that another book should have because I already loved Ren and Della more than I have loved any other character. And to me, they were not characters. They were so real, and because of that I feel as ruined as everyone else in this book; I feel like I too have lost a lover and a partner and a friend instead of just a story coming to an end.

The Girl and Her Ren begins right where The Boy and his Ribbon ended. Ren had left Della after their relationship struggled to change and we get an insight into both their minds with how they cope- Della broken by Ren’s abandonment, and Ren guilty and ruined after he left his Ribbon.

It’s beautiful really- that beginning feels so enchanting, and I remember thinking what the hell is Pepper gonna do in this book because Ren and Della already got their happily ever after, and I really hope she doesn’t drag it, but Jesus fuck, if I had known what she was actually going to do, I would’ve never thought anything like that because beware what you wish for and everything.

I remember saying that Pepper had said that The Boy and his Ribbon was the easiest book she’d ever written, and for me it was the easiest book I’d ever read. And this, time she said that The Girl and Her Ren was the most difficult book for her to write. I should have heeded to the warning. Because trust me, I’ve read the book and it was not easy. It was not easy at all.

Usually I’m the first one to complain when there’s any sort of plot convenience, or miracles that never really happen in real life; but in this book I remember near the end, I was sitting with my hands joined, begging to anyone that there would be a miracle. Because anything else was absolutely unacceptable.

My prayers were not answered.

This book spans the lives of Ren and Della after they come to accept to themselves that they were in love with each other and were soul mates. But it was not easy. In the beginning, Ren constantly fought with the idea of being in a sexual relationship with the girl he helped grow up, and they both fought against the society that really did not want see two supposed sibling together.

You think this was the bad part though?

Oh no no babe. This was just the easiest part. You know the saying- falling in love wasn’t the hard part, loving them was.

That quote could not be truer for this book.

I will be honest with you- I cried. Fuck that. I fucking sobbed hysterically while reading this, and after it was over my entire body ached as if it had grieved for days. Most stories start off gently, then it hits the crescendo and then silence. But instead, this story begins violently, and that in itself should have been a forewarning. It began violently, went silent and then oh god the pain!

I know this review probably makes zero sense, but this is less of a review and more of my mind trying to heal itself by saying this is just a book, this did not happen to you, this is just a book, and no one- not my body, not my brain, and not my heart- believes it. I’m trying to analyse it, to break it down and give you a critical overview of this book, but I just can’t! With a book like this, that sort simply feels impossible.

Perhaps my heartbreak has infected me and made me sick? Maybe my mind has finally snapped, and instead of choosing to forget him, it’s making up stories to keep him close.

I’ll tell you what I do know and can tell- Ren is the greatest character I’ve ever read. If I can ever bring myself to love someone in reality like I love Ren then it would be a miracle because they don’t make men like that anymore. When he said “I’ve protected her”, I swear I burst into tears- I couldn’t help it. Through out this entire book you fall in love with him again and again and again, because he was so honorable, and relentless in his duty to the woman he loved- Della.

And Della is one hell of a lucky girl, even if I’m conflicted whether I want to be in her shoes or not. Compared to the last book, there was a huge change in her psyche because she had to mature so much in such little time, and it was impossible to not adore and respect the woman she had grown into- had to grow into.

Experience the greatest tragedy just to have experienced the greatest love, or live a mundane life never having known either?

That is the question Pepper has posed. Two days ago, my answer would have been I’d rather find love, even if the payment is tragedy, but now I don’t know. I don’t know if anyone could be brave enough to do that. But life doesn’t really give any options, does it?

I’ll end this post; I won’t say much more because I’m not even making sense to myself now. But let me leave you with this—

The Girl and her Ren is the kind of book that people read not to escape reality, but to know that love exists, even when life does not. I am not a crier, and this book made me sob. The last few chapters, I read with blurry eyes and a wet face because it was impossible not to. Even now I will say that The Boy and his Ribbon is Pepper’s best book, but The Girl and Her Ren is the kind of book that happens once in a life, and because Pepper was brave enough to let it happen, I beg you- you let it too.

We clawed and cried and thrust and fucked, and my entire world changed being inside her. My soul switched owners as the thunderstorm that had teased me from the beginning finally found its matching cloud and erupted into existence.

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About the author:

Pepper Winters is a multiple New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and USA Today International Bestseller.

After chasing her dreams to become a full-time writer, Pepper has earned recognition with awards for best Dark Romance, best BDSM Series, and best Hero. She’s an multiple #1 iBooks bestseller, along with #1 in Erotic Romance, Romantic Suspense, Contemporary, and Erotica Thriller. With 20 books currently published, she has hit the bestseller charts twenty-nine times in three years. 

Pepper is a Hybrid Author of both Traditional and Self-published work. Her Pure Corruption Series was released by Grand Central, Hachette.


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15 thoughts on “The Girl and Her Ren- Pepper Winters

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  2. Ari I will come back and read your review in a few days when I’ll be finished with my ARC and have written my review (you know so I’m not influenced and all ;-))

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  3. OK I am back and now on the other side…without a single tissue left! Yes I prayed for a miracle too but I love Pepper remained true to herself and to ren by the end even if it hurts like crazy!!!

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    • Dude seriously, if there’s any book I’d recommend then this would be it because it doesn’t get better. Trust me. It hurts so much because of how much Pepper makes you love every single character. It’s breathtaking ❤

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